Misunderstood

I don’t even know what I'm trying to say with this. What can I say?

I just want to be help for my people, I just want to make a difference with my life. So why do I feel as if I will make many enemies of men, and woman. Why do I feel as if, for my dreams to come true many will have to hate me, they wont understand me, they will say I hate them, but its really just love.

For my dreams to come true, I will have to be seen as a racist, a bigot, at sexist, homophobic, anti American, ignorant, controversial, and having no tolerance. They will try and make me a devil, though all I wish to do is the Lord's work.

Already I tell myself “I wont show up on that news show.” I keep in mind the things not to do in the public eye, I have made a promise to myself not to have a check coming in from anyone who can silence me. So when people start complaining they cant cause me to lose a job. They cant affect my ability to provide for my family.

I think of a line from Jay-Z. “Oh you not feelin me? Fine. It cost you nothing, pay me no mind.”

That will be my theme song for when the time comes for me to stand up and lead the black race. Its pretty damn ambitious the plans in my head, pretty ambitious, I just don’t want to be misunderstood.

If not me, then who? If I don’t do this, then who? No longer can we rely on rap stars and the like to lead us out of the troubles we find ourselves in. They say America is in a recession, but the race is in a depression.

And when I talk like this, they will say that I only care about blacks, that I am a bigot, when I speak out against drugs, and illegal lifestyles, when I encourage men to be fathers they will ignore that. They will over look that. To them I will only be an agitator.

I say these things not to lash out against whites but to give a helping hand to blacks.

“Oh, Lord please don’t let me be misunderstood.”