Need a new phone -Part 2-

It was so humiliating agreeing to her conditions, all so they could talk for a few minutes at night, all so he could have someone to release his thoughts into. Just so he could have someone who would chuckle at his jokes, just so he could feel loved. “No, listen to me I'm talking.” for a girl her size she sure did love raising her voice, and talking to him as if she were in fact a man. Humiliating. After wards he always felt so angry. So angry with himself, so angry at her, so angry that he was not willing to get out of the relationship. He felt trapped emotionally. What, did he like the pain and heart abuse, the relationship was starting to remind him of another woman from his distance past.

“No, I am tired I am taking a nap.” she texted him after he asked if they could talk finally. That was the last straw, he was furious. He spent almost an hour texting her, convincing and proving his innocence to her, just for her on a whim to decided she wanted to take a nap. He couldn’t get even a sympathy call, forget about her saying she was sorry, he was not that deluded to believe that she would ever do that, but a phone call, no? He had no more patience. He called, and called, she was the reason he even had the phone he did, a little pre pay phone he put minutes on just so he could talk to her, and she wouldn’t answer the phone so they could talk after having a fight that almost broke them apart. The words selfish came to his mind

She was being immature and he was tired of it. So he called, knowing that she would not answer the phone and he left a series of messages, and he vented. He vented, he fussed, and he cried. The relationship had been so hurtful to him for so many years and he was just glad to be done with it. His eyes were finally wide open, he finally couldn’t pretend that he alone could make it work, he had been through that before, and he reminded her of that. He left her, via voice mail. After leaving the messages he started to make his way back to his home. She sent him a text message shortly after his last voice message. She had been listening to them as he left them.

“You compared me to her? That is the last straw, you have lost me forever, goodbye!”

He didnt text back, he just smiled, a real smile, a self satisfied no need to justify you know I didnt lie smile. He smiled as he tossed the phone into the gutter along the side of the road. God knows he doesnt need that anymore. But he will need a new phone.